Drunkard

I don't get drunk often. But I feel like when I do, I'm always around people I usually only see very little. Like my family on my dad's side I never see. But usually when I do, it's a party and I'm drinking. And then I sit here and wonder if they think I'm just this huge drunkard b/c every time they see me, I'm retarded drunk. My cousin Jakki's wedding I got to see them, and it had been a while. I got so messed up and then the next morning, I threw up in the restaurant where we had a breakfast buffet. Yes, threw up IN the restaurant. Meaning I went to look for the bathroom and couldn't make it so I quick turned in to the waiter's bus stand and puked on myself. I had to go to the car and put on my clothes from the day before. And then walk back in to see my family all staring at me.

Then I start thinking about it and I remembered Michelle's 4th of July bbq with her cousins who I hadn't seen since I was a kid. Well I was drinking, not that much mind you. But I totally was being obnoxious and loud, which I never am. And I mixed up Bridgette and Erin's name. And it was so embarrassing and the only explanation was that I was drinking. And it was also in front of Michelle's mom and Nana. I could've just buried myself under the ground in embarrassment!

And then the worst of it: This summer at the beach! In front of all my aunts and my uncles and cousins. And their kids! At least this time I didn't mess up anyone's names or throw up on myself. I was close though. But that walk back to the beach house in the morning was the worst. Walking in that room and just knowing that everyone knew what happened last night was the worst. These people probably think I have a problem. Every time I'm around them I act like a homeless drunk person!

Well I'm writing this blog to say I'm not! I swear! I never drink! I promise! Do people really think this about me or is it just me being paranoid!?

2010 Sucked

2010 was such a shitty year. The biggest shitty thing to happen was I had to decide that I couldn’t afford to live on my own anymore. What a crappy decision to come to make. I’m up to my neck in credit card debt and I am spending more on bills than I am making. And when you’re dumping out less water than what is coming in, you’re going to sink. My personal savings has withered down to nothing, since that was the well I drew from when I didn’t have enough money to pay my bills. So the lease was up on my apartment on Halloween. Because of this, it was my worst Halloween ever. I usually have a party at the apartment and people come over and it’s a blast. Not this year! I couldn’t do anything for Halloween. I dressed up as the cop from the Beastie Boys’ Sabotage video and came in 3rd place at work. Wahoo.

So the weekend before Halloween, my sister and I rented a Uhaul and got our shit and left. Mostly everything ended up in a storage unit. I moved from a two bedroom townhouse to my childhood bedroom which is about the size of the closet in the townhouse. So basically the only things that came with me was my bed, my computer, my dresser, my tv and my clothes. Everything else is in storage. And let me tell you, I miss my Wii and my dvds. Never have I felt an urge to watch Super Troopers more than when I don’t have the dvd with me.

Needless to say it’s an adjustment. Things have finally settled down, bill-wise, 2 months later. We got our security deposit back so I guess I took care of it in the 3 years I lived there. It also took me a while to get used to go from having my own bathroom to sharing a bathroom with 3 other adults. I had to get back in the swing of asking everyone if they need to use the bathroom before I go in and take a shower. And no more hanging out in the bathroom reading books while sitting on the toilet. Time limit! And then I have to get used to my parents asking me where I’m going, when I’m coming back, who am I going with, why am I doing it, etc. They make me feel like I’m guilty of doing something wrong when really I just want to see a movie.

Music sucked. Usually every year around this time, I make a compilation cd of the best songs of the year. Well this year, I am skipping out on it. I bought two albums this year when I usually get a whole lot more. I got Linkin Park’s “A Thousand Suns” and Jimmy Eat World’s “Invented”. Linkin Park’s cd was not as good as their old ones. So I have barely listened to it. I am obsessed with “Invented” and have not stopped listening to it since I got it. It’s one of Jimmy’s best cds yet. So if I really want to listen to the best of 2010, I’ll just play “Invented”. Done. I’m glad 2010 is over b/c people are already talking about the music that will be coming out in 2011. My most anticipated album? No Doubt! Bring it!

Movies weren’t that great. The best movie of the year I think was Inception. Most people say The Social Network and while that was great, you can’t really top the writing, acting, and visual effects of Inception. It was original and made me think and literally kept me on the edge of my seat. But the last month of the year, I’ve been going to the movies and renting amazing movies that are being nominated for awards. I’ve been really spoiled and now I feel like I’m some movie elitist. Some amazing movies I’ve seen this year: The Fighter, The Social Network, The Kids Are Alright, Black Swan, Winter’s Bone, Joan Rivers: A Piece of Work, Scott Pilgrim vs the World, Away We Go, Kick-Ass, Easy A, and Date Night. Just to name a few.

TV never disappoints me. And at the risk of sounding like a girl, the best episode of the year was Grey’s Anatomy’s season finale in May. Did you see it?! It was 2 hours long and played out like it was it’s own movie. Amazing! I was upset, scared, worried, happy, sad, everything! And then I changed my tampon. But I can admit that I watch Grey’s every week. 24 and Lost ended this year too. Nothing can top Lost as much as the networks try. FlashForward and The Event can suck it. Those were terrible. And I will be counting down the days until the 24 movie. But we can file that in no-man’s land with the script for Arrested Development. I’d like for that to happen before I die. Some other shows worth mentioning that I love so much and have been consistent with moments that make me lol: The Ricky Gervais Show, Family Guy, Glee, Raising Hope, Nick Swardson’s Pretend Time, Teen Mom, Modern Family, Cougar Town (watch this despite it’s title), Parks And Recreation, The Office, 30 Rock, It’s Always Sunny In Philadelphia, The League, The Soup and Saturday Night Live. I wouldn’t let you down. Just listen to me.

Well that pretty much sums it up. And quick note to Ke$ha, Katy Perry and Rhianna, or as I like to call them, the trifecta of suck: if you come to the end of an album cycle, take some time off. Don’t release another album right away. It seems like you never went away and we need you to go away, even if it’s just for a little bit. Make people miss you. Go away. We didn’t really want you here in the first place. And stop trying to be like Lady Gaga. Because Lady Gaga is Lady Gaga and you’re not. She’s Lady Gaga b/c she’s original. You’re not original by trying to be like her. So just stop.

Here we go 2011!